I know love doesn't come easy for some people... in fact their journey in relationships is more like a battlefield, one filled with heartache, regrets, sadness... the list goes on. I will admit I have been on that battlefield more times than I care to count in my life. But I am not bitter nor have I sworn off love. If anything those experiences allowed me to grow more as a person, allowed me to explore what it is I seek in a partner and what I need to do within myself to be more loving, not only to my partner but most importantly to myself. I didn't have a good example of a loving partnership between couples when I was growing up. My father was a closet alcoholic and abusive. I saw my mother in more fights with him than I want to remember and saw the 'scars' of such fights. I would lay awake at night hearing screaming and yelling and noises that I never want to hear again. When I was older I got up one night and told them to just stop... please just stop. I don't know if they continued their fighting after that... When I was a young teen I asked, in fact begged, my Mum to leave him. But she never did... there was always a reason why she wouldn't. I didn't know what Battered Wives Syndrome was until years later. In the end whilst still a young teen I was removed from home for my own safety. From there my journey in relationships began and failed... began and failed again... Yet after all the heartache and disappointments I never saw the mystery of love as being a thing that is only attainable by the select few. I did however, see myself as flawed, unlovable and a myriad of other things. My self confidence was shattered and as time passed the shattered pieces fell to the ground never to be picked up again. Yes I hit rock bottom... I never knew a person could get to such a low, low point in their life and still somehow manage to breath. Another learning curve for me... one that I am thankful for as it actually forced me to make some serious changes or stay in that pit of emptiness. It also forced me to see me... the real me... and not the person who was always trying to please everyone else. I went through a period of finding me. The one who I didn't even know of. The little girl who so long ago cowered in the corner of her room sobbing with pillows around her head so she didn't have to hear anything anymore. The young teenager angry and full of rage at men. And the older teenager who no longer had faith in a person who was meant to be her protector, who was suppose to take care of her children when living conditions became unbearable. The one who was to ensure her daughter would never be abused... I found all those aspects of myself and with each one sat with them and listened to their heart broken stories... felt their betrayal and abandonment. I loved them as they should have been so long ago and held their hands when no one else did. I showed them a world that they didn't know of... one of promise and wonder. I quelled their fears, their anger, their loneliness... and in turn I became whole. I learned to love me... all of me, including all the little quirks that are a part of who I am. I came to understand my worth in the world and decided to no longer settle for what I thought I should. My standards were raised higher and I no longer allowed my self to be trodden on again. I became a stronger woman... who is also a strong woman for her own daughter. I stopped the self ridicule and saw the many talents that I had deep within me. And in turn I found someone who also sees all those things in me too... Yes it was a hard journey and it did have many setbacks... but I am so grateful to have been given this life with all of its trials and challenges for without them I wouldn't have the understanding or compassion that I do. I wouldn't have looked in the mirror and said, "Let's give this a shot..." This work by Jevareyn is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.
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15/3/2015 0 Comments A SEa of Dreams... I live in a sea of dreams, with shadows lapping at my feet. Beyond the horizon there is a land - I am told - with unfathomable riches. But it is not the riches that man normally seeks. It is a land filled with the wonders of fulfillment, abundance, love, joy, peace and harmony. This land is filled with the things that our deeper self seeks - our soul, if you prefer - forever pushing us toward a bounty that is far more richer than any bank could hold. But this land - again from what I am told - does not have boundaries as it goes on for eternity. The more you accept, the more it expands. And yet - yes yet - many do not seek it for they feel they are not worthy of such things. They feel, because they have been let down so many times in their lives, that they are somehow flawed, not good enough. Or perhaps, this is more the truth, they are afraid of feeling the very things that they are truly yearning for deep within. However, this land beckons for them and their heart feels the pull of this land. People tend to busy themselves so much so they do not feel it. They fill their lives with so many distractions so they can ignore this calling that is silently echoing within them. Gently, ever so gently, calling their names with such tenderness that only a lover could give. Slowly caressing their heart that for whatever reason they have closed off with a cage around it so it cannot be shattered. They feel slight touches but turn away from such things. Again remembering the pain or rejection of the past. Yet this calling is persistent and continues daily, trying to reach within the fortress that now surrounds their heart. Are we so fragile that the thought of being hurt renders us to such drastic measures. To surround our very emotions with a cage so we can go through each day in a daze and work like machines. Is this what we were meant to do for the rest of our lives. To just exist, to just go through the numbness of our daily lives not looking at anything but the emptiness that we see around us. Is this part of the awakening, is this part of the ritual that one must go through until at some point our internal vigilance against beauty, wonder and love becomes lax enough that a part of us wakes up and sees, finally sees, what has been there all along. Something that we thought was forever lost but, in reality, it wasn't. ... Is this part of the awakening, is this part of the ritual that one must go through ... The emotions come forward in crashing waves, heavy sobs now fill the body as all the walls are slowly shattered and torn down. Emotions, once repressed for far too long, are rushing through the gates and you feel like you are falling into an abyss of blackness. So overwhelming is this becoming when, suddenly, you realise the abyss is filled with light and other wondrous things. You feel elated, even childlike, as you experience this opening of the heart. You also feel fearful, but that is okay as you now learn it is not love that hurts you. It is other factors that hurt you. Perhaps this pain began when you were very young and it was thrown at you by others who you thought would be there for you. Perhaps the pain came from other sources over along period of time that it just got too much for you, so you shut down from things. But now you know - oh yes you truly know - that love does not hurt you. Love fills you, elates you, fills you with conscious orgasmic feelings that have no depth. You see the labels you have given yourself start to fall away one by one and as they do your inner beauty starts to shine through. Others will see this happening to you - they may say you have changed. Some may be fearful of these changes as it may be showing them something they have been running from within themselves for a long time. You are not to concern yourself with such things for this is your journey to this blissful land. ... fills you with conscious orgasmic feelings that have no depth ... Everyone has this journey of self discovery, sometimes not in their current lifetime but maybe the next, and that is okay. We all travel at different paces to each other, there are no right or wrongs in this, as this is for you. Along the way you will come across others who are your guides and some are at the same spot as you. It is alright to pause every now and then, so you can breathe and take it all in. There is so much about you to explore, learn and experience. Each step is but a tiny speck in this vast cosmos of space and each speck lights up the sky. They become light for others to follow who are treading ever so gingerly as they put one baby step in front of the other. Sometimes when we get stuck or feel unsteady on our path we find others step in and be our counsel, they see things within us that we cannot. They will tell us what they see and it leaves a mark within us as we cannot unhear the beauty of which they have spoken. Their words move us as we feel the depth of what has been said. Sometimes a part of us doesn't want to hear these words as we are still holding onto old patterns of unworthiness. But you are worthy, just as the ones who are finding themselves on this same path are worthy. As they start to drop the shackles of the past and stop self-sabotaging themselves, they begin to be true to who they are as an individual. They want the respect from others as they are beginning to giving it to themselves.Yes, indeed, this may mean letting go of some who do not or will give you the respect you are so worthy of but, again, this is okay. Others will enter your life and it will become richer with these new friendships that are now forming. ... you are worthy ... Sadly not everyone continues this journey of self-discovery. Some start to go back to things that are familiar to them. Maybe they are not ready at this time but were given a glimpse of what is waiting for them. But, of course, some stop because they are afraid of what others may think, or afraid of the beauty, that is now opening itself for them, will be taken away. It matters not why as it is not wrong for them to stop as long as they do not hinder others who are moving forward. It is a big ask for many to take this leap of faith and go into a future that has many unknowns. It would be a scary process if all they have known is setbacks, disappointments and heartbreak. But somewhere in their resolve they take one more chance as they don't want to have a life filled with "what if's" as that would be far worse than to try and not succeed. To be shown something that is opening up before you like a beautiful flower showing you all the wonders it has within, then you walk away as you do not want it? What a terrible fate that would be for the person who makes such a choice. For often, these very people end up bitter and never see the good in anything. Yes, far better to try and to keep trying as each time gets you one more step closer to the truth of who you are. ... take this leap of faith and go into a future that has many unknowns ... One day you will reach that land of vast richness and you will look back and see how far you have traveled and the growth you have experienced through such a journey. And somewhere, you will find someone who is stumbling and unsure of where to place their feet. It will be in this moment that you will help guide them as someone once guided you so long ago. Then as you give them the guidance they seeked they will continue on their journey and one day help someone as you helped them. You will see that everyone and everything is intertwined on this big web of life, occasionally you will see the tiny ripples of others helping on this web too... This work by Jevareyn is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. 16/9/2014 0 Comments I AM NOT Broken...The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the truth, the capacity for sacrifice. Ironically, their virtues make them vulnerable, they are often wounded, sometimes destroyed. ~ Ernest Hemmingway We all reach a point in our lives where we feel broken... but are we really? Maybe we have reached an apex in our life and we become scared of what the future may or may not hold. Perhaps we are so busy looking back and seeing the mistakes we have made that we do not see just how far we have traveled... or perhaps we have experienced so many things in our lives that we have been broken time and time again... and yet we still get back up to face another day... There are many things that could be in our lives that prevent us from doing our own inner work... the biggest factor is our fear to face what is in our darkness... what we have hidden in the depths of our being as it is too painful... is it shame we are feeling or a feeling of being inadequate... We are not inadequate... we may be challenged... we may be faced with barriers that we think are too hard to push through... but never inadequate... In Japanese culture they use a method known as kintsukuroi it is the art of fixing broken pottery with lacquer resin dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. The item broken is revered for the time and care that was given to it to become the item that is now broken. It was created by someone who strived for beauty and purpose. They believe the object has become more beautiful due to its history and the damage it has sustained. In Western Culture we do not look at things in such a way when they become broken. Instead we throw them away. Yet if these objects were repaired they are raised to a new level of splendour. They become more beautiful and their cracks now filled with gold show that they are resilient. We can learn a lot from this and apply it to ourselves. Every 'scar'... every 'wound' that we have on our body and soul does not diminish who we are... it just adds to us and through it all shows a beauty that we would not have seen beforehand. We are no less important than who we were to start with. We have traveled far, experienced so many life lessons, and continued on. We are stories that are always being written by our own daily existence. We live, we breathe, we love, we grieve... we experience what life has to offer for us in our own unique way... and that is ok... Recently I had the opportunity to go to the beach... something I have not done in such a long time and as I walked I began to think upon many things... which was ultimately the purpose of this trip... How far into the depths of the self must I go before there is a liberation of freedom. How far must one wander to find their own inner self and discover they are not who they thought they were... How far must I walk along the sand seeing the gentle footprints I leave behind as I tread softly upon this earthly plane... searching... seeking... yearning for something that is calling me but as yet I cannot see... Yet as I walk I am finding one common thread... I am tired... not tired as in I've had enough... but tired of being in control of so much of my life... and I ask myself when does this part end? When can I surrender part of the control and live with a sense of freedom, a sense of peace... a sense of being alive... And therein is my answer... I wish to feel alive... For so long I have played the role of being the one to soldier on, to sacrifice many aspects of myself due to my life circumstances... I want to know me again... I want to find myself... I want to delve into the depths of my being and find my deepest desires... the things that my soul has been aching a long time for... Am I being selfish for feeling this way? No... I am in reality being selfless... by moving more towards me I am giving others - my young adult children - permission to move forward on their own life journey... a journey that only they can do for themselves... plus a journey for myself that I have put off for way too long... I was asked not long ago what are my true desires and I answered with the following: "my true desires? to be treated as an equal, not as an object... to be loved and cherished, not used... to be known as who I am, not as what someone wants me to be... to have someone in my life and be friends before lovers..." But that is a desire that many people want in their lives... to be loved, cherished, respected... to be known... However I am finding that my desires are running so much deeper than that... there is a deeper longing... a deeper desire of connecting with the wildness in me... the one who for so long has been waiting for my return... She has always been there, in the back ground occasionally peaking through and giving people the merest glimpse of her existence.... sometimes shocking people... sometimes leaving people in awe as they see a part that so few has seen and even fewer know of... she is me... she is all of me and she is part of me... There is a fierceness to her as she begins to awaken and her eyes become alive with a deep inner fire... she has seen that I am ready to claim her... ready to accept her... ready to live as one with her... ready to be her... So who is this wild creature who dwells within me? Why is she hidden from everyone? She is the wild fire of passion, of love, of feminine desire and longing... she is the creatrix and priestess... she is the well of pleasures to be received and given... and for too long she has remained buried within... hidden from all including myself... I have kept her hidden and denied her/myself the right to feel alive, vibrant, aroused by the fullness of life and the many wonders it has to offer... I kept that part of me shut down because I was afraid of feeling, of expressing, of not being 'the good wife'... 'the good mother'... 'the good daughter'... 'the good anything'... It was a trap first set up as I was growing up in a dysfunctional environment closing doors of myself to keep them protected. As the years rolled by it was easier to keep them closed, forever locked. But in doing so I created a part of me that could never feel fully alive... could never fully open up... could never fully give myself over to anyone... Yet she is now there and I am waiting to embrace her as she is waiting to embrace me... You are hereby allowed to be happy, to love yourself, to realise your worth, to believe in great things, and to be treated with love and respect... This work by Jevareyn is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License. 4/3/2014 0 Comments The AwakeningThis article was originally written in 2010... A time comes in your life when you finally get…when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon. You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance. You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions. You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval. You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and everything isn’t always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with. You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drinking more water, and take more time to exercise. You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help. You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you learn not to always take it personally. You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than you heart’s desire. You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can. This work by Tania Collier is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. 4/3/2014 0 Comments Life Begins... Fear is nothing more than an obstacle that stands in the way of progress. In overcoming our fears we can move forward stronger and wiser in ourselves. Releasing the fear that holds us back is releasing the constraints that we have imposed upon ourselves to the point where we become immobilsed... paralysed.. unable to move... Fear is nothing more than your imagination creating things to appear more frightening than they really are... when action is taken to face these fears they become diminished... the restraints quickly fade away and you become free to express and live life the way you want it to be... Of course some fear is a must to survive... the ones that are there to protect you from danger and being severely hurt... But the fears that stagnate your life and stunt your growth… the ones that begin to interfere in your ability to really live and put limitations on you... ask yourself what would you be doing if you just let them go... This work by Tania Collier is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. 22/2/2014 0 Comments I Dare & I Awaken I dare to LOVE in each moment even if I am afraid of being hurt. I dare to live in TRUST that all is well even if I feel fear with mounting prophecies to the contrary. I dare to let go of GUILT for whatever reason even if it has provided me with a safe haven in which to limit myself. I dare to let go of SHAME for whatever reason even if I feel others blame me. I dare to feel WORTHY Under all conditions and circumstances. I dare to SPEAK TRUTH in each moment even if it may cause temporary chaos. I dare to be BRILLIANT even if I am afraid that I might make others jealous. I dare to be POWERFUL Even if I am afraid I might misuse this power. I dare to be OUTRAGEOUS, AUDACIOUS and OUTSPOKEN - even if I am afraid that it may intimate. I dare to be UNIQUELY ME even if I am afraid that I might not be accepted. I dare to be WEALTHY even if I am afraid that I might lose it all and/or others believe it is not spiritual to be rich. I dare to be a FAITHFUL SERVANT even if I am afraid that no one will take care of me. I dare to do SPIRIT'S CALLING Even if others may threaten me to stop. I dare to enter the NEXT WORLD joyously even if I am afraid of the vast void in front of me. Most of all ….. I dare to GIVE MYSELF back to SPIRIT even if I am afraid I might lose myself. Because losing myself to Spirit makes all the other things I think I need to DO or BE….. obsolete. A time comes in your life when you finally get…when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening. You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon. You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance. You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions. You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval. You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and everything isn’t always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with. You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop manoeuvring through life merely as a “consumer” looking for you next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drinking more water, and take more time to exercise. You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help. You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you learn not to always take it personally. You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You lean that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can. By Sonny Carroll 17/2/2014 0 Comments To Love a Woman... If you want to change the world…
Love a woman-really Love her. Find the one who calls to your soul, who doesn’t make sense. Throw away your check list and put your ear to her heart and listen. Hear the names, the prayers, the songs of every living thing - every winged one, every furry and scaled one, every underground and underwater one, every green and flowering one, every not yet born and dying one… Hear their melancholy praises back to the One who gave them life. If you haven’t heard your own name yet, you haven’t listened long enough. If your eyes aren’t filled with tears, if you aren’t bowing at her feet, you haven’t ever grieved having almost lost her. If you want to change the world… love a woman-one woman beyond yourself, beyond desire and reason, beyond your male preferences for youth, beauty and variety and all your superficial concepts of freedom. We have given ourselves so many choices we have forgotten that true liberation comes from standing in the middle of the Soul’s fire and burning through our resistance to Love. There is only One Goddess. Look into Her eyes and see, really See! if she is the one to bring the axe to your head.. If not, walk away. Right now! Don’t waste time “trying.” Know that your decision has nothing to do with her because ultimately it’s not with who, but 'when' we choose to surrender. If you want to change the world… Love a woman. Love her for life-beyond your fear of death, beyond your fear of being manipulated by the Mother inside your head. Don’t tell her you’re willing to die for her. Say you’re willing to LIVE with her, plant trees with her and watch them grow. Be her hero by telling her how Beautiful she is in her vulnerable Majesty, by helping her to remember every day that she IS Goddess through your adoration and devotion. If you want to change the world… Love a woman in all her faces, through all her seasons and she will Heal you of your schizophrenia- your double-mindedness and half-heartedness which keeps your Spirit and body separate- which keeps you alone and always looking outside your Self for something to make your life worth living. There will always be another woman.. Soon the new shiny one will become the old dull one and you’ll grow restless again, trading in women like cars, trading in the Goddess for the latest object of your desire. Man doesn’t need any more choices. What man needs is Woman, the Way of the Feminine, of Patience and Compassion, non-seeking, non-doing, of breathing in one place and sinking deep intertwining roots strong enough to hold the Earth together while she shakes off the cement and steel from her skin. If you want to change the world… love a woman, just One woman. Love and protect her as if she is the last holy vessel. Love her through her fear of abandonment which she has been holding for all of humanity. No, the wound is not hers to heal alone. No, she is not weak in her codependence. If you want to change the world… Love a woman all the way through until she believes you, until her instincts, her Visions, her Voice, her Art, her Passion, her Wildness have returned to her. Until she is a force of Love -more powerful than all the political media demons who seek to devalue and destroy her. If you want to change the world, lay down your causes, your guns and protest signs. Lay down your inner war, your righteous anger and Love a woman…beyond all of your striving for greatness, beyond your tenacious quest for Enlightenment. The holy grail stands before you if you would only take her in your arms and let go of searching for something beyond this intimacy. What if peace is a dream which can only be re-membered through the heart of Woman? What if a man’s love for Woman, the Way of the Feminine is the key to opening Her heart? If you want to change the world…Love a woman to the depths of your shadow, to the highest reaches of your Being, back to the Garden where you first met her, to the gateway of the Rainbow realm where you walk through together as Light as One, to the point of no return, to the ends and the beginning of a new Earth. ~ Lisa Citore ~ 17/2/2014 0 Comments To Love a Man... If you want to change the world Love a man; really love him
Choose the one whose Soul calls to yours clearly who sees you; who is brave enough to be afraid Accept his hand and guide him gently to your hearts blood Where he can feel your warmth upon him and rest there And burn his heavy load in your fires Look into his eyes look deep within and see what lies dormant or awake or shy or expectant there Look into his eyes and see there his fathers and grandfathers and all the wars and madness their Spirits fought in some distant land, some distant time Look upon their pains and struggles and torments and guilt; without judgment And let it all go Feel into his ancestral burden And know that what he seeks is safe refuge in you Let him melt in your steady gaze And know that you need not mirror that rage Because you have a womb, a sweet, deep gateway to wash and renew old wounds If you want to change the world Love a man, really Love him Sit before him, in the full majesty of your woman in the breath of your vulnerability In the play of your child innocence in the depths of your death Flowering invitation, softly yielding, allowing his power as a man To step forward towards you…and swim in the Earth’s womb, in silent knowing, together And when he retreats…because he will…flees in fear to his cave… Gather your grandmothers around you…envelope in their wisdoms Hear their gentle shusshhhed whispers, calm your frightened girls’ heart Urging you to be still…and wait patiently for his return Sit and sing by his door, a song of remembrance, that he may be soothed, once more If you want to change the world, love a man, really love him Do not coax out his little boy With guiles and wiles and seduction and trickery Only to lure him…to a web of destruction To a place of chaos and hatred More terrible than any war fought by his brothers This is not feminine this is revenge This is the poison of the twisted lines Of the abuse of the ages, the rape of our world And this gives no power to woman it reduces her as she cuts off his balls And it kills us all And whether his mother held him or could not Show him the true mother now Hold him and guide him in your grace and your depth Smoldering in the center of the Earth’s core Do not punish him for his wounds that you think don’t meet your needs or criteria Cry for him sweet rivers Bleed it all back home If you want to change the world love a man, really love him Love him enough to be naked and free Love him enough to open your body and soul to the cycle of birth and of death And thank him for the opportunity As you dance together through the raging winds and silent woods Be brave enough to be fragile and let him drink in the soft, heady petals of your being Let him know he can hold you stand up and protect you Fall back into his arms and trust him to catch you Even if you’ve been dropped a thousand times before Teach him how to surrender by surrendering yourself And merge into the sweet nothing, of this worlds’ heart If you want to change the world, love a man, really love him Encourage him, feed him, allow him, hear him, hold him, heal him And you, in turn, will be nourished and supported and protected By strong arms and clear thoughts and focused arrows Because he can, if you let him, be all that you dream ~ Anon ~ 17/1/2014 0 Comments Let Go“We must be willing to let go of the life we planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us” I can relate to this quote... there were many things that were holding me back (including myself) from the wonderful experiences and moments being presented to me... there came a point in time when I knew I just had to let it go... let everything go that I perceived to be protecting me (when in reality it wasn't)... let go of all the 'ideals' I had projected upon myself of things being a specific way... let go of needing to be 'something better' before I could be 'anything' for another person (myself included)... let go... I knew in that one moment of time I just had to let go... and I did... it was a beautiful and enlightening experience to do that... to just let go... to feel the heaviness lift from me and just allow myself to breathe... to be able to just let go and to go with the flow of everything as it comes to me... to know that for whatever reasons that I was holding myself back from the joyous pleasures of life were merely an illusion I had placed on myself from previous experiences, expectations, upbringing, societal expectations.. and not thinking I was worthy or good enough... let go... I knew deep within that this was something I needed to do... but out of fear or perhaps uncertainty I would stop just when I was at that pinnacle of letting everything fall away and show the vulnerability in me... the softness in me... the feminine within... the goddess/creatrix that I am, have always and will always be... in many ways I was afraid of being seen as weak for my vulnerability... for allowing others to see me... all of me and who I am under all the masks and layers I had so well hidden behind for so long... let go... Yet for my life to change... for any change to be effective I had to drop all of it... I had to become bare and naked to the raw feelings and emotions that I would often deny... I needed to experience these emotions... in their fullness and allow growth from them... from the deep well that I had for so long tended and kept protected... hidden... I let it open up and flow away... I let go of everything that was contained in that well... pain, anger, frustration, control, fear, emptiness, betrayal... everything needed to go so that I was once again an empty vessel ready to receive the gifts being offered to me... to allow tenderness back into my heart, my life... to allow so many things that there was once no room for... let go... When that very moment occurred I had no idea what the results would be... had no expectations of outcomes... I just wanted to be free... I wanted to bring back to my life something that I had denied... and something that I had never experienced before... I wanted to be alive in all the ways possible... I wanted to feel so much so deeply... let go... And since that day I made the decision to allow everything to drop away... to say yes to things that I would have normally said no... to experience the joys that I have and the sheer ecstasy of connection... I have found that there is so much more waiting for me... and with an open heart and open arms I am going to embrace it all with every fibre of my being... I am going to allow the things that I once so long ago turned away from... I am allowing myself to be felt deeply, intentionally, emotionally, spiritually... and as each new experience touches my soul I will know that it is in that very moment that I am meant to be where I am for how ever long it will be... and with that I will be grateful for the love, joy and connection that was and is given so freely... let go... see the world with different eyes as you allow a lovers touch upon your skin and let yourself feel the joys that are waiting for you by releasing your fears of what should have been... instead become an empty cup which is being refilled with things that have deeper meaning to a life the soul has always known as you desperately planned one that was not the right way for growth or connection... allow the softness back in your life become one with the dreams deep inside you a life that you had dreamed of so long ago but only saw half of the picture as the veils covered the parts that you did not want to see... now that you are ready to experience this life on a new level in a new way you will see that so many pieces will all fit together as the synchronicities play and show you a new beginning to a life that wasn't going to be different to what you were trying to plan instead it has become deeper as it is continually growing and all because you made the decision to let go... 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